Listening to Music, Again
An Encouragement
I wanted to share something small, but hopefully encouraging.
I started listening to music again.
It feels like a big deal, because in the Spring of 2021 when I suddenly woke up to the reality that I was involved in a seriously flawed, demonstrably unbiblical religious movement (the New Apostolic Reformation), I couldn’t enjoy much.
Things I used to find a lot of joy in became unimportant and un-enjoyable.
I couldn’t watch a TV show or a movie all the way through. I couldn’t listen to music on my commute to work. I couldn’t read a novel. I would get a few minutes into any of these leisure activities and become overcome with sadness, frustration, and a hunger to resolve my cognitive dissonance.
I needed to detox from years of bad theology. It was the only thing I could think about.
I took advantage of every free moment to watch Christian discernment videos, listen to podcasts about theology, research church history, & pour over my Bible. I couldn’t rest…
This spring, I decided to listen to music in the car as I was driving to work. It occurred to me that I hadn’t done that in a long time. I even enjoyed it!
It has taken a couple of years, but I’m not constantly thinking about theology and doctrine and deception. I can enjoy my free moments by singing along to music in the car, reading a novel, or taking in a movie. And when I grab my Bible or a book about theology, I’m guided by my curiosity instead of my cognitive dissonance.
All that to say- Please, be encouraged. It’s overwhelming when you exit these theological systems. It’s not an easy journey, but your peace will return.
Keep seeking fidelity to scripture and to Christ. It’s going to be okay again.
The Holy Spirit is with you to help, and there are communities of people in churches, in house groups, and online who are on similar journeys.
You are not alone.
God bless.
